Dream a little dream

So last night I had this dream that some people were trying to pour out a huge garbage bag of trash on me and I begged them not to. I love dream interpretation and I found this:

To dream that you are throwing away garbage suggests that you are kicking your old negative habits and throwing away your bad characteristics and unwanted traits.Alternatively, garbage indicates that you are not taking responsibility for something. (dreammoods.com)

I think that since it was the opposite (the trash was coming back to me and I begged it not to), that it is my subconscious trying to get me to kick those old nasty habits for good and really start taking responsibility for my health and well-being. That’s what I’m going to pretend it means, anyway!

Now I have to do something about it.

I can do this.

All right, so I didn’t start on Saturday like I planned. I didn’t go nuts, either…so I guess it works out okay. I have my fitbit charged up and I’m wearing it for the first time in at least six months (but probably more).

I checked into MyFitnessPal and my last weigh in was on July 5th. When I was at the doctor just recently, I was 222. In eight months, I managed to gain about 34 pounds.

RC and I are going on our first vacation ever (and my first vacation since 2003) in six weeks. I really want to be able to walk around and enjoy Seattle without feeling like my body is going to give out on me. To accomplish that, I am going to walk during my lunch hour. Ideally, I’d like to walk every day at lunch…but I know that most likely won’t happen. If I can manage at least three days, I’ll be happy. Considering that I used to go to a TOUGH 30 minute boot camp four days a week, I think I can manage to simply walk for 45 minutes to an hour.

Next step is to get an evening meal plan started…and get back to making non-processed dinners at home. They TASTE better, so why is the motivation so hard?

I can do this.

No more being angry at myself for falling off the wagon, the only thing I can do is just get back on.

Measurement joy!

I took my measurements a few days ago and was pretty pleased. Since my last measurement (a month ago), I’ve lost:

2 inches in my waist
4 inches in my hips
1.8 inches in each thigh
1.75 inches in each upper arm (my least favorite body part after my stomach)

My weight is still right around 188, but at least I’m staying steady and not gaining – and I’m still losing fat as my measurements show (hooray!).

Once the kids go back to Tennessee for the summer, dinners will be a lot easier – right now I’m cooking for five and while I’d like to have a juice for dinner a few nights a week, it’s pretty tough to make dinner for everyone and then be all, “Enjoy that, Imma have a juice.” I’m still sticking to fresh ingredients and dinners made from scratch, though…so that helps!

I’m not sure what happened, but my knee (my injured one) has been really hurting the last few days. It used to only hurt when I tweaked it; it wasn’t a constant pain. Two nights ago it hurt so much that I actually kept waking up. Unfortunately, it seems that anything a normal person would take is on the no-no list for those of us with IIH. I’ve had to depend on ice pack treatments (which do help, but not as much as I’d like).

As a side note, I’ve gone to the gym every day except Friday for the last two weeks. This will be my third – making habits here!